My #introduceyourself - some guy just figuring it out!

Hello Steemit community! :)

I once, long ago, had an account on here but as far as I can tell my keys are lost to the void. There’s a chance they exist somewhere, considering how many different places my belongings have ended up, how many thousands of pages with random notes scribbled on them stuffed in random binders, safes, notebooks etc; but those will likely not resurface for years(if ever).

So it’s not entirely new to me. However, like I said, it’s been probably close to a decade since I last used the platform so I’m sure many, many things have changed. So it will take some getting used to. But I am very happy to be back :)

So who am I? I’m not entirely sure. Even though I feel very confident and comfortable with myself, I don’t think I’ve really “figured it out” yet. I have walked many different paths in life, worn many hats, had some success and even more failure. Recently(like very recently), I did something that I have always wanted to do, but have lacked the ability/courage to do so. And that is, essentially abandoning everything to figure myself out, so to speak.

After a lifetime of battling mental health issues, going through periods of self-destructive habits, moving here and there and trying this and that; I moved out of my apartment and into my station wagon in a last ditch effort to have the freedom to figure out where I want to be and what I want to do. Shortly after, I sold said station wagon, spent a night in a shady motel to keep my belongings safe, and bought a 1994 Chevy van to turn into my for-now home. And I couldn’t be happier with my decision.

This is all extremely recent. As in all of this transpired in the past week. I know a lot of people reading this(that is to assume people are reading this at all lmao) are probably thinking “oh man, this person’s in for a surprise”.. well! This is nothing new to me. In my 33 years of life, I’ve spent half of that without a stable living situation, address, bank account.. et cetera. Usually I haven’t done it alone, so that part is new to me, but if we’re being morbidly honest, I got to a point where it was this or the end and I chose this. I know I have many challenges to face and a long road ahead of me; and that’s alright- that’s why I’m here!

I hope to share my journey with you. The ups, the downs. The vehicle issues, the vehicle build out. The cold nights, the hot summer days. Figuring out how to best makeshift a kitchen. Getting kicked out of parking lots. The places I find, the people I meet(hopefully some of you?). Whatever happens, happens.

I am a writer by trade and want to produce something out of this new era of my life. Whether it be fictional or non-fictional, I am unsure as of now. But I will be working on it over time and I hope that I can also look back and refer to specific events, feelings and time stamps through these posts as well. I want to write about my healing journey and hope that it can find and touch and help others going through it as it comes. I want to rediscover my love for photography and share some of it with you all. Overall, I just want a platform to share my experiences with and I couldn’t think of a better one than this.

Other things i enjoy and plan on sharing here include music, film(mostly horror), hiking, climbing, skateboarding, snowboarding, biking.. I guess really anything outdoors… books, cooking, painting, making paint.. honestly really anything that keeps me occupied. That’s what I’ve found most helpful to my mental health problems - just keep me occupied. It seems so simple yet can seem so hard.

That’s it for now. I am very happy to be here and so look forward to this journey and growing a bond with the community here. Much love to you all