introducing myself/ my story

hi everyone this is sahil labhshetwar 2nd year(age 21) engineering student at IIT.

I Like painting and playing basketball. I would like you to read it till the end and a sure you will not regret as many of you are going through same shit.
Like many i am from a middle class family. I have been to a decent school i was a average student there because never had passion for studies. But somewhere i knew that i had more than average aptitude and IQ. But was to lazy to do anything except for eating watching cartoons, and playing . i have spent most of my childhood enjoying and with no worries. I loved playing basketball, i started playing because my crush was in the girls team. (she was very pretty and cute. not was is! ill talk about that later). I was also then selected in the under 17 boys team.

Everything was going very good.But time has to change and it did. my grades were falling drastically . I remember it was my 9th standard , and i think that was end of my childhood and all the innocence i had . My dad said he wanted to talk with me i knew something was wrong . he said in very polite way " sahil your grades are showing that you are not interested in studies , is there something else you want to do in life or maybe you are good at something else?" i had no answer because i had never thought about it nor i was extremely good at something. so i just shook my head to say no. then he left saying nothing and that left me thinking. i started thing about want i really want to do in life but still was not that serious.
Now let me come to the girl i was earlier taking about, i had and still have a huge crush on that girl but she never gives a fuck about it. She is very pretty and kind and the main thing that makes here special is that she reminds me of my mom she it not the type who are just interested in the materialistic world. Even simple text from here makes my day. But it is hell lot of pain when you like someone and they don't like you back. I still have hope that someday ill end up with here, but don't know how and when or maybe not , these thoughts leave me reckless at times .(i seriously mean that reckless).
know moving to my 10th grade , i did very well and had my photo in the local newspaper.
I still dint find my passion so decided to continue doing my studies , my parents wanted me to get selected in the IITs which are one of the most prestigious college in India . every year 16 lac people give the entrance and only few thousands are selected.
So i stared to prepare for that and worked my ass off for the next two years i don't from were did i get that determination (maybe be because my mom wanted to see me in the IITs) , and i did well and was selected . That was one of the happiest day of my life.
Now here i am in the second year writing this post to earn something on steemit . still confused about what i want to do in life or what is the thing that i am passionate about that i wont feel like i am working while i am doing that nor i get tiered doing it. (ONE THING I KNOW THAT IS EATING ;) HAHAHA...). Somethings really leave me confused at time and they are follows (i expect answers )

1. what kind of people are those who love animals but are non-vegetarians. (I am one of them)
2. what is the ultimate goal of life.
3. Is there something like right or wrong ? or its just the perspective. For example terrorist kill humans and the butcher kills animals. this seem very nonsense to most of you but if you give it a good thought it is not.

Enough of the philosophical stuff!
still looking for my passion.......! don't know when will i find my passion or not even sure will i ever find.
here are some of my photos.

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