I never gonna quit(swc)

Hello friends

When i was in 11th class i always feel like i am the most stupid human in the world , because everything i wanted to do , i failed my friends always smile on me till now ,, i don't know why? , and eventually all bad thing happened to me not only that i always got bad mark in all subject . always cry at night by hiding and not get admission on the college where all my friends go . ok i didn't need them ...

i was started studing physics , on those period my dream to become physicist , on our annual sports i was a spectator of short-foot throw i observed there is a winner and losser
Winner who throw more distance to the ball while losser who failed to throw more distance.

In both cases failure and winner depends upon throw while throw depends upon force force depends upon the power that used by the player , it tends to proof doesn't have luck they are just normal people like me i failed because i don't try with the requard effort . just like i want to make a good post to earn upvote but it depends upon how does i write ,it tends to there was no failure infact it arises due to lack of knowledge and the process of failure make us know more about the failure and hence give us knowledge.

Even I am wrong I don't care if the world ### doesn't stop pulling me back why I stop

why I stop pushing me front .and must win

Now what they think about me And my appearance I don't want to know .if they gifted with good look from god .

I am also gifted with bad appearance .
If god wants to see me like this what can I do?