Rolled Back Dices

I am not a stranger to casinos, as I've been to quite a few till date, but not "the type" that rushes to pour his salary into slots and roulette either. I did got a bit of its taste in August when I won some $ and that taste caught me a bit. Didn't became a player, but once in a while, when I passed by a casino or a place having slots I did threw something like $10(worth in my local currency) to test my luck.

I was pretty lucky I have to say as I won some sort of local jackpot worth about $400 the second time that I put my hands on the betting button of a slot machine and a few hundreds here and there. I felt lucky and I was starting to get the cravings of it at the same time acknowledging them. I know what casinos are, how they work and what to expect from them and I have friends that lost thousands to such games. One of them lost close to $60,000 and he was near me almost every time I won telling my that this is the beginning and I should be careful.

I haven't played much in the last months, but as he said, you don't know when they catch you and so it happened. From $10 here and now I got to $50 and before you know it these colors that made me feel lucky and special beating the devil at his own game kinda beat me and tried dragging me into "the bloody arena" where no one wins.

When I started playing I used to do it mostly for fun and kind of excited when pushing buttons, like a child unwrapping his presents near the Christmas tree. If I got to loose the $10 that I was planning to play my chance with, after a bowling game, and haven't won anything, it wouldn't bother me at all leaving the game room with a loss. Now it felt different...

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I started to get the gamblers mad attitude of pushing forward my luck with new cash out of the pocket and that's not me. I have my rules for all sort of things and when I break them it means that something's wrong. And that was the bell that noticed me something's wrong. Casinos never made anyone rich and they'll never make me one. I'm 100% sure.

Hence I stepped on the brakes and decided to not play anymore. Not even $10 here and now. I am thankful that I am quitting at a win of about $600 for my "entire gambler activity" and having the experience of casinos consumed before becoming an addiction. I don't know if its something esoteric with this games but I know that when you add all the numbers from the roulette table you get 666 and that's what I got today without making such calculations.

It simply appeared as my current credit at some point in time when played the slots waiting for a good win and that was a sign that I should dump such activity asap. Now, I will admit that I feel about crypto and the way "I played it" pretty much the same sometimes, like a gambling game, but this gamble kind of has its logic and the dopamine that it feeds my brain doesn't taste the same. It's definitely better than slots and roulette and it definitely feels good putting an addiction down before it grows legs... The slots I mean, not crypto.

Thanks for attention,
Adrian