RE: How To Alter Your Subconscious mind.
When I was in the process of changing the direction of my life, I found that being disgusted about who I was and where I was headed became all of the motivation I needed. I then had to divorce myself from all communication and influences that were contrary to the direction that I wanted for my life. I am very thankful for God's Word and His Spirit teaching me. I found that as I looked upon those single verses of His Word as personal letters to me from my loving Father. I hung onto what He said about me and His promises for my life , then I just focused on them by meditating on scriptures one at a time until I was comforted and had understanding. It's amazing what can happen to your life once you decide that you want to change and your spirit, soul and body all come into agreement with God's will for your life.
I'm glad that you found something that made you feel much better about your life :) The way you feel comforted about God is the way I feel about my art, and books.