exactly! you just NEVER know... its sad but true.. and especially us as women have to be super strong in a situation like that and not just for ourselves but most definitely FOR OUR BABIES. we consume ourselves with trying to be the perfect partner and then bam one day theyre gone and its like who am I without him? we have to learn to love ourselves more because at the end of everything the only one who truly 100% has us... is US , ourselves.