RE: My Christmas Tree is up and still fighting my demons.
It seems you're taking some positive steps; I like the list of things for the next day thing. I do similar, but it's probably more from an organisational aspect, for work, than anything else.
I've lost many people to suicide, military guys with PTSD, my wife's uncle, a friend (over a boy of all things) and others - Most recently a husband and wife couple who both shot themselves only about 2 months ago. I posted about it, and my feelings because of it on steem.
I don't want to say too much as I'm not qualified to do so however can say I'm one who sees it as selfish, or at least, have done in the past. I certainly don't judge and these days, as I approach 50 years old, I think more laterally about it and more from the person's perspective.
I can't help but wonder though...If all those people who suicided could reverse that act and the result of it, once it's happened, would any of them? It's a very final solution. A moot point I know, but one I thought about in respect of the couple who shot themselves in the head over financial difficulty.
Great looking Christmas tree. Can I be honest? We didn't put one up this year - Couldn't be bothered. 😃
Im so sorry you must have been through a tough time with losing so many family and friends through suicide. I also feel for what they went through.
I watched a documentary about it, there was a man on there talking about his own suicide attempt. I can't remember what bridge but there had been quite a few suicides. He said the moment he jumped her realised he didn't want to die, thankfully he survived and is now a lot stronger. There was a few others who said the same.
Its a desperate situation to be in, that couple who shot themselves must have been broken.
I have managed to tick off everything on my 1st list and stepped out into my garden for the 1st time in 3 weeks. Im feeling better for it :)
I can understand about the Christmas tree, this one is our first in so many years. With no little ones running around Christmas doesn't have the same magical feel it used to have.
Yes, there were fractured and obviously saw no way out. Same happened 18 months ago to an ex-military mate. I couldn't be angry at him as his demons were eating his brain from the inside out. I miss him as does his wife and kids.
Seems like you're having a good day huh? My wife loves gardening. It's her thing. She feels good when out there and that's good enough.
Keep pushing. 🙂
Sounds like you were well aware of your friends situation, they go throw hell when they come home. There's not enough done to help them. I really feel for them all on the frontline. They should be looked after.
Thr garden is only a recent thing for me, Steemit got me out there and now i love to see plants growing, i have a special love watching the Bee's work. Scared stiff off them but I'll sit and watch at a safe distance Lol
No one can ever know what deployment to a warzone is like unless they have been. Yes, my mate struggled for a long time with PTSD, as others still do.
There's not enough done to help them when they come home. They are heroes and shouls be treat like one.
Agreed.