Hmm, sounds like a bad place to be in. Hugs to you @trucklife-family. I guess we will never get our pieces back together again but as we give, it just makes us human. There was a time I was asked if I would trade the uneasiness being in the tense for feeling numb and nothing, then I realize even in struggles, I'm still a human and in my limits, I could cry and let God reach out to me to embrace me, and that's precious to me.

Being in the tense is never easy and it sucks big time. But only those who are able to stay in the tense and face them head on, will triumph after that. I think you are like a diamond, birthing out of pressure and intensity. I feel you are very strong within and I admire you for your vulnerability too because that's part of your strength too. Cry if you need to, never be afraid or hold back those tears because they carry the strength within you out. I pray for breakthrough for you in this point of life and grace to walk through it. Sending you lots of love 💕