I can understand with the devastating effects of over consumption of medication....make your mind such strong that no medication can give you any ill effects...life is such a beautiful thing, never ever think of taking such a step again. When you're depressed, you may feel like you can't accomplish anything. That makes you feel worse about yourself. To push back, set daily goals for yourself.As you start to feel better, you can add more challenging daily goals.And always be thankful for everything you have, in this way you can remain in a very positive frame of mind...Good luck and big hug!