Don't fall in love with me, I'll only break your heart.

There's always that one person who will come and put things out of balance. The Peace that I have come to know suddenly feels old and incomplete. I start to wonder what's lacking albeit how I already knew what it was - you. You made me feel weak, yet I just let you because there's something in that fleeting weakness you give me that makes me feel wholly safe. Besides, you filled a place in my heart that i never knew was empty.

God knew how much I prayed for someone like you, but there are bad sides and things that will turn you off aplenty in me. I am bipolar, I have vices, I am all those things your mom would warn you from. But despite that, I fell for you anyway. Admitting how this feeling makes me eager and wild, it also scares the soldier in me. I fear that after all, I'll only be left alone, a loser, and pathetic. Like that of those movies my retarded human watches to fall asleep. Im a coward at this. I want to jump off that cliff, but are you willing to jump off that cliff with me? Am I worth your laughter? Am I worth your tears? Am I worth everything that you have to give up for just to be with me? Am I worth even a single minute from of your precious imagination. If I am not then please, don't dare look at me as if I'm everything you ever wanted. Please, don't talk to me as if my lonely voice is music to your ears. And if I am not all that then please, don't fall in love with me, I'll only break your heart.

PS. Earlier this evening, a pusakal attempted to akyat ng ligaw at me. I felt like a damsel in my fortress and he, my he-cat in shining fur. I'll call him bruno from now on.