programmable behavior

They say "Be yourself" I always try but get butterflies in my stomach.

I find myself watching the Kardashians, then later in a social setting acting and sound like I'm Kim. I could never be her no matter how many surgeries I get. At my most groomed I will never be as beautiful, celebrated, or iconic as Kim Kardashian.
I must admit sometimes I question myself "maybe if I was more attractive I could have a easier life"

When you surround yourself around these make believe characters and truly imagine the fairy tale ya snooze. How would you treat someone who dressed trendy vs plain? You'd treat the trendy person better due to societies perception of what someone should look like.

Just because your old doesn't mean you must act like it. Just because your young doesn't mean you must act it either. Be yourself and stop comparing who you should be at this point in time. There is a voice inside your head. There is feeling in your body. Listen. It is the most powerful advice you will get from yourself.