RE: My First Four Days in Novi Sad - Adjusting to life away from Amsterdam, and my addiction problems.
Thank you :) yes, I think if I can stop these bad routines I might be able to do a lot more as well... It's not so hard, part of what keeps me going out for the energy drinks is a sense of urgency about getting work done. But in fact, I think it slows me down a lot. The kind of work I do requires more concentration and I get all impatient and jittery from caffeine. Even half a cup of coffee is too much many times...
But boredom, and this sense of urgency, keeps breaking my resolve. So I need to let myself enjoy the quiet and peace (it's very nice here), and stop being on my back about getting stuff done. I have achieved plenty, and other people have benefited from some of my work, so it's better if I focus on getting the right mental state. Clean and clear, and patient to find the right information and put it into application.
From so many months day in day out following the crazy schedules of the shelter and drop in centres, walking 2-3 hours a day, I have forgotten what it is like to not actually need to go anywhere. I need to enjoy that for a while and let it heal me.
Sounds like a plan! I sometimes suffer from the same, too much work too little time syndrome :p . Most of the time its makes me counter productive, reading a book about mindfullnes helped me prioritize work and taught me too enjoy the smaller and happy things in life.
Still struggling with it sometimes though, it's a process....