money, die and life

I just want to explain myself and relax. Due to financial reasons, I couldn't go to the end-of-year ball in middle school. I sat on the steps of a house and cried. Years passed and I signed up for a course. The people there are very kind and smart. But the course is over. Since I didn't have many people in my life, I got attached to them and now I am very sad. After the course is over, they go out to eat something and it hurts me not to go. I can't get a job because I study for exams. I'm not a money lover, but lack of money hurts me deeply.