Lets Start a Company We said, Its Gonna be Fun We said.....

A Big Black Hole. That's what my life feels like right now.

The last time I felt this bad, this much of a failure, was when I dropped out of varsity and left with feelings of disappointment, pain, a few regrets and a massive student debt I am yet to pay off. I feel like I've hit a serious dead end.

Let’s start our own company we said. It’s gonna be an exciting journey we said. That’s the mind-set we were in when my former store manager and I quit our jobs and start our own marketing and branding agency. The ambition, the drive ooooh the dream deep within us! Why not we said, we have the talent skill and industry experience to pull it off right??? We had stars in our eyes......little did we know those stars were about to fall...

Let’s go back to the beginning, just to give you some context of how things came to be, of how it all started...
I'd landed a job as a graphic designer a couple of months back, my first dream job. I was an artist and had (I still do) a serious passion for graphic design and 3D animation even though I was only going to be a graphic designer I was still happy.

So the first few days where hectic. I had to adapt to the high pressure deadlines that came with the job, as a graphic designer in that company (which I will not name) you have to create a Mona Lisa in a matter of days. On top of that I had to learn from scratch how to use the design software they used, in this case being Corel Draw which I’m madly in love with now, it’s an amazing design software( yeah I know I just sparked a serious debate among designers). Nonetheless I adapted and in no time I was a design machine, pumping out great designs in BULK baby!

Our boss though....oh man where do I begin? Can I say she was the devil made flesh.....nah that would be an understatement; I can't belittle her evil ways like that no way. I tell you this woman made the devil's evil deeds look like acts of mercy. She put the fear of God in her employees, treated them like slaves, especially her graphic designers and showed no appreciation or acknowledgement for the hard work we all put in to make her bucket loads of cash. I'll introduce her to you in my future blogs in detail, oh you'll get to know her don't you worry.

To cut a long story short though, my manager and I had had enough of her crap and peanut pay and decided to quit.
One day in a euphoric epiphany we decided to start our own company. We were sick and tired of the 9-5 life and crappy bosses and decided to do our own thing, and yeah sure we had rent and monthly bills but we thought meh we'll figure it all out along the way. I mean after all we hustlers right? It’s not like we can't put something together and make things happen....

The days went by and nothing; we couldn’t nab a single client. Those days then turned to weeks, and those weeks have now turned into a month. Still….nothing. Dang what have we gotten ourselves into…

As of now we’re still hustling and the good news is we have found a few clients (emphasis on a “few”) and some wheels are finally moving. Looking back I ask myself: did we make the right decision? Maybe we should’ve started our company as a side hustle and leave only when that side hustle income could replace our salaries, or maybe we should’ve just looked for another job, I mean we had good experience on our resume’ so why not? Or maybe we just should’ve been smarter about how we started our company? I don’t know, I’ll let you the reader be the judge of that. The one thing I can take from this entire ordeal is that if you want something don’t make excuses for yourself go out and GET IT! My guess is it’s something that was probably deep in the back of our minds for quite some time and circumstance forced us to take action.

As well as a go-getter mind set, have a never say die attitude and a steel resolve!!! I say this because even though we could find ourselves a good job somewhere we told ourselves no more 9-5s we want something better (gosh I wonder if this is blind optimism or us just being stupid).
Whatever your dream or entrepreneurial journey may be and no matter how big and black the hole in your life may feel like right now, with bills you gotta pay coming at you from every direction, go out there and make it happen and NEVER GIVE UP!