you are so beautiful. i love this photo of you and your child...

I know I can do it, I just really didn't think I would need to.

i can understand this part.... and resonate with where you're at .... as you say, you know you are strong (and we know it too) and yet you're in process ... going through this horrible devastating thing, feeling the feelings and introspecting, reassembling. our hearts are with you. So Much Love!!!!