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RE: My First Four Days in Novi Sad - Adjusting to life away from Amsterdam, and my addiction problems.
Be strong! Very brave to share your feelings and life story here. We need you strong as a witness in 2017 :)
I need myself to be strong also... I have to finish this process of getting myself into a stable life situation. I think I am just going to try and take it easy for the next week and work when I get a pique but mostly just let my body clear out all this junk. I can't bear to go back on the street again. I want to work for the blockchain, it's the best employer ever... so I better be more careful with my money from now on.
The blockchain is able to give you some freedom in your workspace, just keep the really important things in mind. Health and happiness always!
But i do understand times can be rough, i have send you a small token of our appreciation for your work and to help you out my friend!
Thank you for your great acts towards a fellow human and steemian. Your kind words and action as evident in this comment, touches!
Always glad if can help just a little bit :D
Thank you :) yes, I think if I can stop these bad routines I might be able to do a lot more as well... It's not so hard, part of what keeps me going out for the energy drinks is a sense of urgency about getting work done. But in fact, I think it slows me down a lot. The kind of work I do requires more concentration and I get all impatient and jittery from caffeine. Even half a cup of coffee is too much many times...
But boredom, and this sense of urgency, keeps breaking my resolve. So I need to let myself enjoy the quiet and peace (it's very nice here), and stop being on my back about getting stuff done. I have achieved plenty, and other people have benefited from some of my work, so it's better if I focus on getting the right mental state. Clean and clear, and patient to find the right information and put it into application.
From so many months day in day out following the crazy schedules of the shelter and drop in centres, walking 2-3 hours a day, I have forgotten what it is like to not actually need to go anywhere. I need to enjoy that for a while and let it heal me.
Sounds like a plan! I sometimes suffer from the same, too much work too little time syndrome :p . Most of the time its makes me counter productive, reading a book about mindfullnes helped me prioritize work and taught me too enjoy the smaller and happy things in life.
Still struggling with it sometimes though, it's a process....