Am Going Crazy
Some part of me is telling me not to give up that if there is life there is hope but another part is really telling to give up, nothing seems to work. I have tried what i could do, i am not strong or prepared enough for what am facing. I live in a house where it is believed that so far you have eaten you have no or very little problem to deal with.
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I am tired of asking for help, i want to help others too. Am not getting younger as the days go by but i am getting older, when will i be financially librated is all i think about everyday. Even when there are signs of hope, am too disappointed to cling on to that little hope.
To my understanding i have been a good boy, trying to always do things the right way at almost all the time. Am not saying i have been perfect but i know i have done things the right way compare to others around me. All the good boy good boy what have i achieved so far. Though am not jealous of what other guys are buying but i think i should be worried of what i have done wrong.
Am just worried, really worried... Am tired of this world but i hope i will have the strength not to give up... God please help me am loosing my mind.😭😭😭
Some nights I look at my ceiling and wonder if I've been doing it wrong. But by morning i wake but unfortunately others couldn't then i conclude that I still have a purpose here that's why the ripper have taken my soul yet. That gives me the energy to fight on. I think same of you. keep fighting even when you dont know why.
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Have you read Jordan Peterson's 12 Rules For Life? If you don't have access to the book, you can have a grasp of it by watching Youtube videos.
Start with little steps, stop blaming the people around you. There is something you can do to get out of that situation, even if it is something very small like putting your own bedroom in order, then writing a curriculum that makes sense, sticking to the basic abilities you have. You probably have some knowledge of computers that should be useful for small companies around you. I have found that Google Sheets can be extremely useful in making things more efficient. Reach out to a company, saying that you want a chance to show that you can add value to their needs. Focus on the employer's needs, not yours. Do not talk of your needs, they do not matter for other people, everyone is only worried about what they want. In a week of actual effort, you will find something useful you can do for that person. Then you can discuss payment.
Once you have that nailed, do not rest on your laurels. Remember this forever: YOUR JOB IS TO GET A BETTER JOB. Once you get something nice going, start working on getting something better. It will be much easier to get a better job once you already have a job in your pocket.
Focus on other people's needs and you will succeed, that's something very few people do, and it is a very well-rewarded ability to have.
Good luck.
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Leap in Faith.
These are the words said by two archangels - as a lady struggling to overcome her addictions both mentally and physically was told.
You are strong for you endure. Hold faith - not for the hopes that you will be given all that you dream and desire - but by trusting The King of Kings, Jesus Christ, that you will overcome these moments through Him Most High.
You are strong. Why? Because you endure this and still persist. You feel burden and sadness yet you push forward - this is what separates you from those who you watch and observe. You gain strength from overcoming the challenges that you once felt you could not. I tell you what these archangels said:
Leap in Faith.
In God I Trust And In God Trust Me
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