I'm so sorry to hear about your loss. I lost my dad a long time ago and my mom in '99. I know the feeling of loss and discouragement,but you'll be okay. You guys can't give up hope. Hold on to what you do have, it'll get better. Hell, this is the first time in a week I've been able to walk and get out of my bed. I upvoted and resteemed. Wish I could do more. Keep your head up and don't lose hope!