So tired and grouchy!

I do SO SO well for a few days, and then I have a crummy night that makes me feel like the last few days were not even worth it!!! Completely irrational? Definitely. But just because it’s irrational doesn’t mean I don’t feel frustrated about it!

So here’s what happened. We had subs for dinner, which is not a bad choice for health, etc, but mine was assorted, so I probably could have gone a different route. It WAS whole wheat, and I only had mustard on it for dressing, so two checks for me, but then I blew it all by eating the entire foot long sub…I don’t know why I did that…I’m trying to remember if I ate lunch or not, and maybe that’d explain my pigginess.

But anyway, then this evening I had 3 chocolates! I know, it could have been 4, but I’m just disappointed in myself. I know I could have done better.

And to top it all off, we had some people over tonight and there wasn’t a convenient time to bring out the veggies and dip, so we didn’t end up eating it until 10pm which is WAY too late to be eating, even if it IS veggies and dip

So the long and short of it is I’m really bummed out because I thought, “Maybe I’ll be in the 150’s tomorrow and we can go get my new ipod!!!” but the reality is I’ll probably have gained weight!!! Oi, what a dummie I can be sometimes.

On the up side of things though, this gives me chance to prove to myself (and all you lovely people reading my blog) that bouncing back IS possible and can happen quite quickly! Just you watch. I’m not going to let this set me back because…well, just because! Wait, I know…BECAUSE I DON’T WANT IT TO! And I’ve realized that I have a lot of control over what happens to me and what I do. I just need to desire and not desire something enough! Amazing huh? I’ve been told that we’re always given according to our desires, and I believe it completely.

So the moral of the story is, if you desire losing weight, don’t settle for the foot long subs just because they’re in front of you.

Phew, that’s my 1am rant…and it’s another night of 5 1/2 hours of sleep for me!