I get you
Thats discouragement
Talked about it here also
When things don't go the way we expected
Steemit everyone is fighting for attention and the people adding the highest value wins
Defeat is normal, but being defeated is normal; because it shows you have given up
Just like the analogy of game i use
I was faced with similar situation
Can check my post my steemit story so far
I think following the keys here can help
Although is a gradual process.
Will work on the research