Thanks for sharing your story. Negativity will get us nowhere. I am living with kidney failure and on dialysis but I am far from being negative because it's not a solution to my illness. Life is a choice and everyday I choose to count my blessings, make memories and find more reasons to live. Choose to be positive despite anything, pray... with prayers, God will grant you a consciousness that can endure suffering and you will never be hopeless when you walk with him. All the best to you. Keep Steemin and keep inspiring!