Twilight Dusk

That twilight, whatever kind of storm that made me accidentally meet you after so long we never see each other again after the separation two years ago. And the twilight of this day may also be less precise if it is said as usual. At first I thought it would be normal, anyway we just met, it was not accidental. Just a coincidence. Talk about things that are not clear the direction of the goal, then 30 minutes after that we go back apart. But my supposition was not quite right.

Honestly at the time I was happy. I can not fool my feelings at that time, when I passed you. Even more than passing, you take me to spend more time. At that time you took me to one of the ice cream parlor, I ordered my favorite green tea ice cream. As you know, I've always been a fan of green tea. Yes, if you remember it. But, you may have forgotten something very simple like that. Relax, I know who I am in your eyes.

We are friends, but the distance is too far to bring us together even if only sharing or something. Or even this is not just about distance. I know your current boyfriend is definitely anxiety if I meet and spend time with you. I know very well, he will not allow you to spend much time with me. This position is very confusing, I am your best friend and ex-boyfriend too.



Perhaps the position of your ex-girlfriend forces me to keep you away from you. Not because of the distance or busyness that is the biggest reason for this situation. That distance can be achieved even though we are very far away though. Busyness can also we get rid of first if indeed we intend to meet each other, sharing and spending time together like those who make friends so closely. They often meet, solve common problems, and also spend time together. But, I know friendship does not demand to be like that. Those who make friends have their own way of keeping their friends in harmony.

Sometimes I want to be like those who always laugh with the best friends on their side. But, our friendship is different, unlike meraka really free to live it. I think our friendship is still blocked by the shadows of the past, although we are actually trying hard to get rid of it, but still the awkwardness still exists.

At that time, you also ordered ice cream with the same taste as me. While talking, talking a lot of things over here, we spend the ice cream. In the middle of the conversation, you talk about slowly talking about it. Your new boyfriend. He who now has comfortably stopped in your heart. You look at me with bright eyes, of course it's a happy sign. You tell it with a happy expression that shines in your eyes.
On the other hand, when you tell me about him, when you look at me then. I paused for a moment, although I was still listening to you at that time. Actually my mind is somewhere.

The look that I saw then was still the same as what I had seen back two years back. The highlight of your eyeballs is still well recognized, even more so. All the expressions that were on your face at the time, forcing my brain to remember and open again to remember a few years ago. Memories that contain dozens or even hundreds of happy episodes are also sad.

It was then, as if time had stopped turning. Or even time turning back. This is really surprising just by looking at your face, I remember how many things we used to do together. Living the day with surprises that I can not predict every second. Not just about happiness, but also about profound sadness. Both alternately fill my memory.

As I remember you too, right then I feel the feelings that once existed. But this feeling became strange. I do not know what this feeling is. Whether it's feelings of disappointment, hate, longing, or even love. They all melt into one that can not be defined. Apparently just by looking at you, the various flavors were again present to greet the heart that has been too long uninhabited this.

In the middle of my momentary momentum, you suddenly startled me. Apparently time did not stop, I realized from my reverie. I think I've been spinning far into my past, to be precise in our past.
Shortly after awakening me from the reverie, you ask.
"Uh, listen to me what the hell was talking about?"
"No," smiling shyly.
"Dude muluh sih ago, why hell?" He asked.
At that time I did not answer her question, just replied with a good ominous smile. I thought you would think that too. Because I am too smart in terms of harboring and hiding. Everything always succeeds in making your mindless heart convinced by my words or just through a smile like I am now doing.

Not felt 30 minutes walk, my ice cream that time was also up. We decided to go home. The meeting was quite simple, but it did not seem as simple as the next one. This must be more complicated and suffocating.