3 AM

I always feel like I have to prove my worth to someone. Guy worked as a model. He appeared in Cyzone magazines. Men and people wanted me around for that. And when I have grown up, truly loving myself... my physique is still something that I protect and take care of but it is not the source of my self-love. And that's why 99% of the men I know in my life always and constantly try to get closer saying how "beautiful I am" and that's why for me it's already... normal? But not in a good way.