Visa

My friends visa is running out, it isn't such a bad thing they will either need to pend money to get it renewed or travel to another country. Previously this would have been hell though with the advent skype, distance doesn't matter as much anymore. I feel kinda of bad for some reason as I am worried about a friends future this much, well this much to blog about it - should I be showing more attention to my partner. Either way if my friend doesn't stay in the same nation as me that is perfectly fine hopefully I can meet up with her in another country.

The big however then comes up, as mentioned should I be feeling this attached to my platonic friends?? I rationalise it by saying if she was male there wouldn't be an issue, there just seems to be one since she is the same sex as my partner. Maybe I am just splitting hairs, I expect her to be perfectly fine with me having friends of the opposite and same sex and I have to show her the same - even if that involves her having intimate dinner at a hotel with one of her former work mates. Don't I show just as much intimacy by heading out to a party to meet a bunch of friends, maybe I show the same level of intimacy by playing PlayStation or watching videos with my impending visa issue friend. 

Needless to say it doesn't really matter that much in the scheme of things, my partner will do her thing and I will do mine. I feel as if I need to bring her closer to me and my friends so they can fully understand the differences between what I feel for one and what I feel for the other (to be a bit boring). I guess this is what Plato was trying to comprehend in Symposium, not just Symposium all of his works he was trying to comprehend love and life. I am sure that him and Socrates shared the same lounge or same bench many times.

_Artists impression_

Another thing happened meeting up with old friend who are famous for me, well for me atleast and meeting those who are famous for me and others. Which bares more weight? I have the naive thought that spending time with both in the same place is an amazing experience that I will never have again - sadly. To have such experience and not share it with my partner seems wrong, though I like to bring up The little Prince(wait while I google the french name) Le Petit Prince by Antoine de Saint-Exupery. Just in a whimsical way, he leaves a rose on his home planet and visits earth with many roses, lets not get caught up if a 'rose by any other name would smell as sweet'. There are many beautiful roses on planet earth field of them (yes yes we are all individual flowers in fields of individual flowers) I find myself caught up in sharing experiences with the other roses and with the rose back on my planet, I guess she feels the same. (The reason I am caught up is I feel bad sharing such amazement with others and yet not with her)

I am going to drink  glass of wine and smoke a cigarette while I think upon this.

_I know I should not NOT(in capital letters) promote drinking of wine and smoking yet these vices are so satisfying - hopefully I don't end up like Bill Hicks_

The issue is I love others, yet not in the same way. I love them as my friends each with their own personality, some with flaws others with more flaws. I should embrace this love as it will make the love for my partner flourish and blossom (slightly cliche), I guess the reason I feel bad is wanting to share the same experiences with her. Anyway enough drunken rambling I have already slaughter the English language and any expression of love, good night steemit.