SLC-S31/W6-“Creative Interpretation| The Concept -Becoming”

Becoming Confident

Create a final piece inspired by the concept Becoming

I used to be scared to share my thoughts and also comment on what my classmates are discussing.

Why was it that way?
They always laughed at how I speak. So instead of sharing my thoughts or joining the conversation, I would stare from a distance without saying a word.
It wasn't only from my classmates, other people around me did this too, mostly on purpose.

I used to hear about people who have friends around them that defended them whenever they're in an heated situation from others. But me, I was so sad and lonely because I didn't have that kind of a friend.

What transformation is taking place in your interpretation?

It's transformation of 'Becoming confident.' I deserve happiness. And my happiness is not define by others. I was living a life of fear and regret.
Fear, because I stayed silent so that I wouldn't be made fun of. And regret, because my opinions could have make things easier or better if I had engaged in some of the conversation. But now things got to change.

My transformation wasn't extraordinary; it was accepting the reality of myself. I came to understand that I'm unique and that I can't be someone else. I started giving my thoughts and comments when I see need to do that, instead of holding back and later regret that I didn't say a word when I had the chance. I now have conversations freely.

What happened motivated me to study and improve my communication skills. I came to understand that what happened was just a challenge I had to face, and I'm grateful I realized in time.

What challenges appear during this process?

Becoming confident wasn't easy.

Firstly, my own thoughts made me look down on myself. What people had said to me kept reflecting. I felt down sometimes but I didn't give up, I kept trying.

Secondly, making mistakes brought back the memories of those days people made fun of me. For example, after a bad presentation where what I prepared skipped my mind or I don't present as I planned. I accepted the mistake, studied how to improve and tried again.

Thirdly, when these people saw that I'm not silent anymore, they would be likes, "Is this really you?" and they laugh. Since I'm becoming a more confident person, I did tolerate the discomfort and kept going without fear anymore.

How does your piece connect to your personal growth or vision?

Five years ago, if you had asked me to present in English. I would have been so terrified, all my thoughts would be in that presentation or if I see a way I would avoid it.
But now, I'm confident in my communication skills. I research and prepare well, then I do my best for the benefits of my audience.

I have come to see that many people are inspired by my presentations and look up to me for guide. I'm now a teacher.

If I didn't have the belief of becoming a better version of me in being confidence, I wouldn't have gotten here!

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Cc: @ninapenda