Very disappointed, because I have tried my best

Hello everyone.

Hi everyone, today I want to share something that deeply disappointed me.

As a child of a new generation, especially as it was my first time living in a faraway city, I truly felt what others didn't. Everything was going smoothly, but I decided to make a good decision for myself. Without realizing it, disappointment teaches us the meaning of life. Continuing the struggle is the right choice, even when we are forced to face life's obstacles.

I'm fine with my current job and earn a very good salary. I swear, not everyone can work at my current job, as it has quite a lot of requirements. Not everyone can qualify. However, I have a pretty difficult obstacle to overcome: commuting to work. I have nothing here, no motorbike, and even anything I want to do is very difficult. It's about the distance to my job.

Last night after work, I took public transportation home. When I arrived at my rented house, I lay on the bed thinking about multiplication in my head. I really didn't want this to happen, but I had to decide for myself. Because I know there's no one in this world who can always help us. I always stick to my words: There's no one in this world who can always help us, unless that person is different from other humans.

Even though I had a very good opportunity. Working at an Alfamart store, everyone wants that, a good job. I was paid around $280 per month. Furthermore, in this day and age, it's very difficult to find a good job, like the one I'm currently in. But I decided to resign. Why? Because I didn't want to waste money every month on public transportation. I spent about $10-$11 per day on commuting to and from work.

Let's multiply that by $10 X 30 days = $300, doesn't make sense, right? That's for every dollar I spend, because I have to take public transportation to work and back every day, so I need around $10 more. I also need money for daily meals, right? I'm really disappointed because I used to work so hard to get a job at Alfamart. But circumstances changed me.

For example, people might say, "You can find a rental house close to your job so it's easy to get to work." That's a nice thing to say, but they haven't seen it for themselves. I've been looking for a rental house close to my workplace for days, but there's no rental house close to my workplace. I swear, there aren't any.

Even the rented house we currently share with Alfamart employees is one of the closest places to work. But without our own motorcycles, we'd have to spend over $10 a day to get to work. Even the employees who live in this rented house have their own motorcycles. That's why I clashed with one of my friends a few days ago because I kept asking him to give me a ride to work.

What can I do, There is no other solution to survive even though I have a good job. That's why I am very disappointed, In fact, every day I always look for a solution to get a simple motorbike like a cheap used motorbike so that it is easier for me to save money to go to work, because having a motorbike here is like getting such great happiness, But it's useless, because I don't have enough money to buy it. I have tried to ask for help from anyone but no one can help me. But I am not sad, this is what is called life.

That's why I decided on March 20th to quit my job. There was no other solution than to stay here, spending a lot of money every month due to the distance to work. It's such a shame, because this is a great opportunity for me to move on to a beautiful future. I haven't even told my grandmother about this, because I'm afraid she'll find out and worry about me being so far away. Moreover, my grandmother is very old. I'm devastated right now. It feels like there's no purpose in life anymore.

Author Misslaila💦.