The Night's Negativity

Have you ever just get lost in your thoughts? Like maybe happy memories from past or some bad ones, and specially the bad ones? This to me happens quite frequently, usually at nights i tend to think of negative things and just can't stop myself from not drowning in them. So here's another poem, hope you guys like it.
So here right now its 12 o clock

Looking at the ceiling, in my mind

Some deep ‘negative’ thoughts:

In my life,

Few twists n turns, some deaths ‘n’ birth

Some complete mishaps,

Fighting for Degrees ‘n’ Certificates, & this and that....

With this heart, not so pure,

This troubled soul, where is its cure?

Few choices which I made,

But fell in the pits,

Because they were all wrong

at the first place.

Maybe I’m the only one to complain,

Stunned,

Repeating these questions over n over again,

This troubled soul,

where is its cure?

Who’s accountable for those deaths?

People say it’s all ‘part of life.’

But those ones took a part of me instead….

The one’s who didn’t had to go.

Were the first who went far away,

Leaving behind just the memories,

In my mind. Which forever stayed.

Here I feel all lost,

In this great pyramid of my thoughts,

This devil on my head,

Please someone just make him stop!

What is it about this night bringing these negativities?

Oh these thoughts would you stop it please!?

But it won’t I know,

Till the night collapses & the morning shows

my alarms rings,

Until comes the new day,

Bringing along a few imaginative things.

So here right now its 1 o clock

Looking at the ceiling, in my mind,

Oh lord I need,

Some deep inspirational thoughts.​