unrequited - a poem!
unrequited
my senseless devotion
to what never was
makes distortions
of us both
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Happy Thursday everyone!
So I went to go get my school id last night but goodness gracious the line was so loooong. Every undergrad was there the same day lol. So I decided to come home and enjoy an unexpectedly free evening and head back this morning when there was less competition. Sometimes it's good to be a river flowing around a mountain. ;)
So this poem is a different kind of love poem than yesterday's. This poem is about unrequited love.
Perhaps there are experiences of unrequited love that you have had that are truly good feelings. The love comes from a genuine place even if it is not reciprocated. But this experience that I was reflecting on in this poem was not such a case.
This piece is about a time when the feeling I had did not come from a place of understanding or knowing someone. I'm not sure if it was lust or projection but it was a strange, destabilizing feeling. I wanted this person so much and it was so long ago I can't even remember why. When I look back on it, my opinion of this person isn't even that good. Maybe I see more truth now than I did then? Maybe I have grown out of it... Or maybe distance and time unwound whatever was drawing me to them.
Either way, this situation confused me for a long time until I started to realize the feeling I had was quite shallow, even if it was strong. Once I could see that I didn't really know anything about this person or was purposely trying to fit them into an image I had... the feeling disappeared. When I looked back, I wonder what it would have been like if I had actually tried to get to know them?
We have many lessons in love as we grow up. I think perhaps the kind of people I am attracted to now are much different than in the past when I was younger. I'm quite grateful for that lol.
Have a lovely day, folks!
xo
Ciel
What a great, growing moment that is. I think the new term I'm mostly unfamiliar with is "emotional intelligence," in knowing what your emotions are and how to deal with them.
Very nice poem! Thank you for sharing!
Thank you! Yes emotional intelligence is an interesting thing. We aren't really taught much about it but it's really essential to us determining what our true feelings are and how we want to act.
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Well, they say love is blind. Sometimes we are blinded by the feelings we had at the moment. I'm sure all were good life experiences that we can learned from. Great poem bytheway.
Thank you! Yes I was definitely blinded! Thankful to have learned from it and grown. :)
We all went through that stage, at least once in a life.