WHAT KEEPS ME GOING - fighting back my depression!
Hello, warriors!
Since steemit has become my open-book diary, allow me to somewhat "share" you my feeling of anxiety. I do not mean to make you feel sad tho, but you know, sometimes we only need people who listens. Even just for a moment, even just for today, I have expressed myself.
I'm feeling so depressed today. So scared. And so worried. My heart is too heavy that I had to write it down here to lessen the pain. I'm not sorry for wasting your time in reading this but I just need this now, otherwise I'll explode. I may sound selfish and overrated but it's true.
I'm too tired of being strong.
I'm too tired of pretending to be okay.
I'm too tired of being scared to face the truth.
I'm too tired of holding back my tears.
I'm just too tired of EVERYTHING!
I just want to run and never come back. Or sleep and never wake up.
But just everytime I am about to escape and give up, a picture of my family pops up in my head.
"No, Zy. You can't leave them just like that."
Giving up is a choice. And I choose not to give up on them. Not today. Not now.
Ironically, my FAMILY will always be my weakness and at the same time my source of strength.
If you are feeling down, turn to God. You can always turn to Him. It's ok to cry. It's ok to feel weak. He is waiting for you. He is calling you, like a Father. Seek His will. Ask for His wisdom that you may understand his plans. It will never be easy, but trust Him. His ways are better than yours!
Apparently, this what keeps me going:
To God be all the glory!!!
You might want to read my previous post:
DEADLIEST SUPER TYPHOON IN ASIA
See you on my next post! 😇
"Let go and let God."
I could relate to your post on many levels, glad I saw your post. Some days are better than others for me, I know God is always on my side, I never walk alone.
Thanks for sharing.
Keep your head up my friend, a new day will come.
Sending good vibes your way!
Yes please, @jeffjagoe. I need that now. Thank you. 😅
Keep on STEEMin'! We're here for you!
Made me smile. I surely will. Hugs and kisses from the Phils!
Steem on!
Stay strong!
HE is our strength
Hugs xxx
Thank you @sunnylife. Made me smile. Even sa post lang, ramdam ko ang sincerity mo. 🤗😍
There is always hope in God.
“But blessed are those who trust in the Lord
and have made the Lord their hope and confidence.
They are like trees planted along a riverbank,
with roots that reach deep into the water.
Such trees are not bothered by the heat
or worried by long months of drought.
Their leaves stay green,
and they never stop producing fruit."
Jeremiah 17:7-8
Thank you my friend @dhen2
Do not say things such as "I want to sleep and never wake up", the best way to overcome depression is to talk to someone. We are here to listen to you. You can talk to anybody here in steemit, especially Filipino steemians, or to me. Do not hesitate to ask for someone to listen to you.
Thank you po sa suporta. Nakakaiyak. Hahahaha :( pero honestly po, minsan talaga nadadala ako sa problema. Hayyyy :(
Normal lang po na magdamdam kapag may problema, ika nga "if you feel pain it means you are still in the game, if not then you're out". I'm glad i've helped :)
God bless you po. ❤
Dear zyrawr, Thank you for sharing this with us. Always remember "Difficult Roads often lead to beautiful destinations".
Would be honored if we could work on an article together.!!! Would be happy too. Goodluck.
What a beautiful message there is @kingbach. I love your positive posts and it's helping me cope up with my depression. I would love to work an article with you too. How do we do that?
Hello @zyrawr, and thanks for the post. I'd like to share with you and also those who would respond to this post the sermons of Dr. Martyn Lloyd-Jones on "Spiritual Depression" they can be beneficial and full of Biblical insights.
https://www.mljtrust.org/collections/spiritual-depression/
Blessings to you.
SDG
Thank you for this. Will surely check on this. God bless you. ❤
I would recommend of finding the reason why you feel like you feel, and to really confront it , as you are young and beautiful and you have many years ahead of you in witch you can be very happy. Start to talk with yourself , and try to find the real reason why you are so disappointing. And not the overall reasons as nobody loves me and bala bla bla, but the real reasons, witch are there in you. Be true to yourself and everything will eventually be good with you!! Do the talk it really helps, just don't lie to yourself !!!
This is a very good point. Actually my real problem is about my dad's condition. He was recently diagnosed with colon cancer stage 3 and I'm just too weak and too scared to face that. :(
If symptoms persist sabihin mo sararili mo "yung mga pangit nga na depress hindi bumigay ako pa kaya na maganda?" 😉