Perturb
Perturb
It wasn't those typical thoughts that would go away once you decided not to think of it;
My thoughts in 3 am will continue along the way,
From waking up, from eating breakfast, from going to school and until i get home and lie on my bed.
My thoughts in 3 am would bother me day by day,
These thoughts that are full of ifs and what ifs, why and what?
My thoughts in 3 am would be mostly questions;
Of why is my existence still exist in this period, what was the reason i am born?
And the thing that bothered me in all, was how to disappear in this world,
Without hurting the people that surrounds me;
Without causing them ache and pain.
The feeling of being empty, seeking for solace,
Trapped in a dark box for eternally;
Losing the feeling of being alive,
Sad eyes that weren't notice for years as time goes by;
How did i continue living with this kind of life?
Joy comes in the morning
Change is possible