try to be free

i say no bible study, we do mind study
i want your thoughts on this, on the paper, no hurry
they’re looking at me like a god in the sky
but they don’t know they’ve got it in their minds

people think it’s a gift i’ve been given
but things only come to those who cherish
i found the gifts in time spent using them up
and i don’t regret a second of much

how can it be so hard to make you think straight
especially in the games of feelings and heart ache
i am only twenty years old, and a lifetime beyond you
god forbid i analyze a situation you don’t like to

reminders don’t expire cause of a birthday
so let me remind you when i say
feelings don’t grow up or go away
you fucked it all up, that’s okay

but you can’t drop your pride or your ego
now you’re watching me leave through the window
never thought i’d put my foot down,
enough is enough, i won’t drown

the beating in my neck, has left me
goodluck trying to silence this screaming
it’s escaping my body like a fire in the woods
i know it won’t stop, but it probably should

i think about how you live life all the time
why would you live it for a man in the sky
i don’t think you understand one day you die
if you did, this isn’t how you’d spend time

things you cant touch, you dont get back
you don’t understand, you just react
i’m tired of trying to raise a child
when you’re supposed to be a parent,

i was your skeleton on wood
hanging from the wall, as i should
one two three, i couldn’t count
the times you hurt me with you mouth

i don’t want to start to ramble
but i could go on for days
about all the things that you can’t handle
in so many different ways