Heart groaning!

If love is intoxic I have lost myself
If love is confusing then I almost lose my way
If love is like poison, I really need the antidote
If love can kill, maybe I already feel the murder
If love is stifling, I almost forget how to breathe

Spinning in confusion
Makes the chest feel so tight
Love is so great that is in the heart
But it can not be uttered

I wanted to scream, but to whom the shout was I headed
I want to get rid of all the flavors in the soul
But to whom it must be spilled
Throw away all that I feel
Something that kills me slowly

Love?
Why are you present in my heart
Why do you make me mourn him in silence
Why do you make me only able to reach it in a dream
And why, love you head for him?