Thank you @galenkp, I appreciate that you took the time to read and comment on this. Seriously WHAT IF that's why we go through the really challenging times - to allow ourselves to break apart that we can gather back together stronger & better than ever?? I think there's so much that needs to be "unlearned" and healed from modern living, and the hope and faith that the dark times serve a higher purpose help me through them...maybe helps someone else too 🙏🏽