Reconciliation

Reconcile today and let go grudges
I have always had a tumultuous relationship with my dad. One filled with conflict, anger, and struggle.

After years of non-communication, miscommunication, arguments, and fights, I realized it was time to reconcile what was left to whatever degree we were both capable.

I had to let go of the past and get honest with myself—because whatever I was doing on my end was not only hurting our relationship, but also killing me from the inside out.

I was crying out for resolution with my dad, not because I didn’t think I tried hard enough in the past, but because I knew I would regret it if I didn’t.

This didn’t mean he would accept my feelings, or that we would suddenly become the best of friends. It was an opportunity to become the best versions of ourselves for this relationship—whatever that meant—whether we spoke every day about the weather or just on major holidays to say I love you.

Now here I stand with a father in my life and a relationship to go with it.

And to be honest, it’s not the father-son relationship I always wished for. But I am content and at peace with what we have now rather than what we didn’t have before.

It’s a place where we can co-exist peacefully while respecting and loving one another.

It is a relationship, and it took courage.

Some relationships aren’t meant to be reconciled, and that’s okay. But that is a choice each of us must make. You must ask yourself, is this what I truly want?