Wow. Your prayer just iterated some memories i have had in the past; If you try something out and it does not work, it is better to work on yourself to make it work because other people managed to do it successfully . The problem isnt the activity, the problem is always within you and only you can solve it. I learnt to blame myself the more and not to shift blames as i am the achitect of my future. God please free me from me as well. .