I'm Now 1/2 Dolphin

Small milestone compared to some, but fairly large for me as I still remember reaching 1000 Steem Power last summer and I was thinking that, first, I'm a one fifth of a dolphin, and second, it's going to take a long time to reach that dolphin-hood at 5000, yet here I am, half way there.

I feel lazy though, not just on Steem, but in life: no money, hanging at my dad's, trying (barely) to find a job. I'm not complaining, but I do wonder every now and then what's wrong with me when I seem to not care or be motivated the same like others. I don't know how some people make it seem like "you just go and get it". Yeah, I have pathetic problems, but what can you do – my mind seems not wanting to cooperate according to all the standards imposed by society. It's easy to use it as an excuse, but it's still true though; I know what ticks me off and competing over average jobs certainly isn't one of those. It would've been helpful if it was told in high school that "you need to fake to wanting to live, btw, because otherwise nobody will hire you". I'm not particularly good at faking though which might end up shooting me back, I might be too honest at times. Or maybe I'm just cynical, seems like a fine line between the two. I also know that these negative thoughts are just a manifestation of me not being in an ideal situation, it's a whole different story when I, let's say, am traveling and meeting cool random people. So, my current style of existing is rather blatant at the moment.

But to end this up with something positive, at least I can earn some Steem by rambling about my insignificant problems. Steem $100 soon? Not yet though, so I can ramble myself more Steem when there are fewer people competing for it ;)