That's all just nasty. You've read the Bible. You just refuse to believe. I doubt that you have any legitimate reasons to not believe. Your eternal fate will be much worse than those who didn't know any better.

You like to pretend that all Christians are hypocrites but I know the truth. The ones that scare you are the mature Christians that love God, love people, and do the best they can to live holy lives. Yes, those are the ones that scare you.

You can laugh all you want at the ones that don't measure up but that won't save you when you reach the Judgment Seat of Christ. God is loving but God is just. There's no other fate than hell for those who reject Jesus as their Lord and Savior.