[deardiary] on the edge of a black hole, the law of attraction breaks down, hippie
20180626
10:12 am
... reasonable hour i guess considering i went off at six, at least i got four hours
working at the neighbours the dog from greece barking ... well that one's behind a 2.5 meter fence, they like too much
sunshine, no working in the garden then until tonight, summertime, every day de bende van B.L.O.
its gonna be fun all summer, the fun never stops in van drukkerland
flixxo was to launch the 25th, now its the 30th ?
is that good or not good ? so what shall we do then ? earl grey i guess cos im out of coffee, and then ?
dark souls ?
probably ... braindead
12:10 ... already two hours of my life gone by , 2 hours i'll never get back, too hot to be outside but the statejob inquisition has NO EMAIL ADDRESS ... someone from the union i asked has been calling them for over a week ...
for over a week ...
NO RESPONSE
so while i have asked to pay in chunks since march, they have ignored it and now i have to send the letter back they sent me (you know, that "or else!" letter) telling them the only payment plan available because they ignored me is what they're getting right now .. protocol or not, because thats the best i can do since they wouldnt let me when i could
... people outside, same complaints ... seem like they forbid people from bringing booze to footy and sell only non alcohol beer ... (??!?) pure commerce ... dont care, i havent watched tv in months, certainly not soccer ... and then some ... a womans dog gets bitten , calls the cops , cops cant do shit, the BLO gang comes fight in front of someones door on the lawn there ... police cant do shit ... someone finds a whole stash of empty lorazepam where they "hang out" ... police cant do shit ... the football field looks prim though ... and despite a water warning on national tv, issued by the government they have been spraying the lawn with water daily ... money enough for that
in van drukkerland ... someones gonna lose their patience sooner or later ... i still pray its not me first ... as for that footy situation, no money for social projects but money for tractors and watersprayers ... that might cost the mayor some votes, but who gives a shit, im not allowed to vote, and frankly
i dont wanna
so i'm updated, nothings changed ...
but i already knew that
13:25 .. hot hot hot and it aint even summer yet is it
there's a new kid in town , thank you @coinsandchains for talking about it, never heard of it before
17:06 feeding time ... TOTAL GLITCH IN THE MATRIX ... i see my cat sitting outside meow to get in, my keys are upstairs, i come down he's nowhere to be seen, put on a shirt and go outside ..nowhere, then he comes out of the neighbours garden like wut ?
and im like ??!??? and suddenly it's itching all over my body, i should know better than to go out in broad daylight
20180627
0150 am ...
ten minutes til posting time, how inconvenient @kiwibot "recharges" three days after i pay them and goes down for a week ... HOW VERY FUCKING INCONVENIENT ... i think i should have rtfm , i think its how its done, they write it down somewhere and if you didnt read it you should have, sounds very american but i'll stick with it, there's not many options like that, see what it gets over a month or two, after all
its not like there's alternatives, are there, and if there were, prices are SO low i couldnt even switch because its pointless selling off at these rates
10:54 ...
woke up at 10:40 ... but its wednesday, i automatically expect the place to be brat-packed with the bende van lorazepam-blo so i'm automatically braindead, i think it triggers as a defense mechanism so i dont flip and do stupid shit ... i suppose the day will consist of mostly nothing , i think i have 3 euros left or something so there wont be much shopping either
sbd price same, vote from nearly 0.06 to 0.041 in one week, last earl greay, only hipsterflavoured left, took an extra pill to make sure i stay braindead emotionless ... so not really worth much effort and thats probably it for today then
11:43
o wait we do have a funny ::
and EVEN BETTER ...
i got the mail too, all in japanese, i still have the postcards they sent first, all in japanese, its been how many years ????
i lost access to the login email, microshyte banned me from the for no reasons given, and even if there's no way after all these years i could prove what was my account, i dont even know what it was except the hotmail used
so FUCK THAT .. getting that mail after all these years is pretty much rubbing it in my face, really, i have not heard ONE LETTER since i receive those postcards from tokyo ... with the all japanese writing on it ... paper law is useless unless you're on the side that writes it, isn't it ?
14:45 , got through all my replies on steemit main account YAY ... right on time too, i can hear the sound the BLOrazepam-gang outside ... "sorry ma-am if they're fighting on your front lawn, there's nothing we can do about that"
talk about useless police state shit
clearly ... the sound is unmistakeable i guess that will shut me down for today, im gonna take another chillpill so i dont go outside to flip on their ass .. i think the cops would like that, saves them the hassle of doing their job.
Well, flipping would be bad, its actually the only thing that worries me, that they might get so bad on my nerves and your shitty cops just sit there taking 4k tax money a month doing nothing, that ID FLIP in one of my classic surprise attacks ... which has been loooong ago and never happened before i was 33 didnt it ?
that worries because that would get in the way, because if they got me so far and there's irrepairable damage then suddenly your useless cops would do their job, because thats easy
that worries me, truly, so i'll take another pill, yes ... its gonna be a long summer
do you have my money, bitch ? so i can get out of here with my last remaining cat, before its too late ?
well i havent flipped have i ? even in the days when the place was full of guns i never did , did i , but the though that it might under extreme stress worries me ... i would never call the cops, its something i was taught not to , on both sides of your law and political axes ... i would NEVER , yea but hearing everyone here who did
it would be pointless anyway, they simply don't react
like the statejob inquisition didnt pick up the phone for a whole week when i had the union call, in soviet flanders, the police state takes your money, then tells you to move on,
nothing to see here ...
the other problem is, with petty shit like that spooking my mind i dont get to think many other thoughts, i certainly don't get to be an ounce of creative or a few lines of code in
I HATE THIS FUCKING PLACE, whoever put me back here can get a darwin award
eat after next vote, take pill get to bed, wait until dark ... locked inside my own house by circumstance, trapped behind enemy lines
trust no one, they will all fail you
they will all betray you, stab you in the back, leave you for dead, steal your money then smile in your face
HEY, HOW ARE YOU?
nod and smile
nod and smile
i know how that sounds, but thats my thoughts right now ... should i hide those ? i suppose if it were gonna happen it would have years ago, high school shooters fascinate me in a way, maybe since i once had the silly idea of getting a psychology degree, but the state quickly told me that was not my place, peasant, you can't afford that ... and then i COULDNT FIND A JOB NO MATTER WHAT TO PAY THE FUCKING STUDIES
so now i wont take one, no matter the threat
allow me to quote you on that, precious
"ITS TOO LATE FOR THAT"
fascinate me since they have a similarity with suicide bombers ... the fact that they're already dead the moment they leave the house for the last time, nothing will stop them since they're no longer alive in their own mind, the future has been set ... but unlike your religious bomber they havent been indoctrinated in training camps for months, watching the most horrible horrors day after day on those who won't obey until they do without question, no
the kid shooting the school ... was alone ... had no social net, but the mindset at the end seems the same, so
i have a goal, and that goal is getting out of here with my cat ...
so no worries ... precious
oh c'mon Fred da Fed , i can profile myself on that for ya ...
like i said i have a goal, one i decided on long before they stuck me back in hickville, and it hasnt changed and it never will, i have something i truly care for and
if you check all profiles you have there, ... (can i have those ? its been a while since i got my hands on one of those, the last one was Anders Breyvik whos profile mysteriously appeared where i could read it ... THAT was interesting) ... how many of them left a digital footprint that showed they were gonna do it ? how many talked about it? how many said they were worried that one moment of loss of control under extreme stress might lash out ?
because i'm not the ones on speed or steroids here btw ...
its a hobby, like programming used to be ... the human psycho ... especially the ab-normals,
normals are a bit easy since the word itself defines the fact that they all adhere to the exact same patterns, with minor deviation but thats more like a skin on an iThing , where marketeers sell people an identity to be unique (like it used to be with cigarettes, smoke THIS and you are THAT (leaving out the "just like the other 100 million who do it-part", the identity of subculture to define uniqueness as an illusion while actually simply behaving exactly the same as the norm : the safety of the group
back to the primitive fear of the dark
i dabble ... you know, if i were to SAY anything i would need a statestamped degree
otherwise my words
have no paper weight ....
15:34 .. o dear what a long day, i hope the nights get longer soon
so i can get something out of life
16:12 sleepyvote ... hmz, busy wont show me the replies section and i dont have a slider on steemit so i'll stick to my own comments then for now ... how long til kiwibot ? yagh literally now, the little kids southeast of me (relatively) playing, every sound outside is interpreted by my brain as "fucking hell they're here again, here comes the ruckus, here comes the filth" but its the little kids playing, if i didnt pay ACTUAL attention it would have been classified as the BLOrazepam gang, thats what you did, AGAIN
no, ... sauce tartare at least something self made, i need to clean the deepfryer so ive been eating fries for three days, that way i can clean it and stash it for when the folks get back to belgium ...
and yea, it almost felt like a test .. busy.org willing to show anything but the replies section like "you can pick only one" (how lame would that be huh ?) ... in which case, if it was a test, you failed the test since i vote on a comment of myself instead, i wish my vote was where it should be now, at $0.10 about but its not so i dont feel an ounce, and thats good, feelings would be bad right now, because any emotion could quickly turn to anger
it would also mean unwanted invasion of my privacy and the thing with privacy is, once violated you can never un-violate it, like a girlfriend cheating on you ? no matter how hard you try, there will ALWAYS be doubt from that moment on ... its best to stop right there
but it wasnt a test, right? i mean who would break laws, invade my privacy just to see who gets the vote if i have only one
if i had only one
steemit wouldnt be worth the light of day for even five seconds a day
22:15 cat wakes me up, needs toilet (outside, he hasnt used that litter box in over a year i think) , i hear the sound of
BLOrazepam first thing i wake up ... some tribal dance song .. i suppose the affirmation that they're doing it "after ten" ... right before they leave, the head supplier first ... filling my head with "them" instead of
instead of anything else that might be constructive
or productive, ... provocative ? hm ? its what kids do ? is it ? it IS very childish and certainly BLO as they call it themselves
if it werent for the stolen medication, the vandalism, the death threats and the fighting on peoples front lawns and the stalking it wouldnt be just childish, it would be hilariously ridiculous, with the little tribal dances and all that around the ring-leader.
BUT ITS NOT
... that second pill seems to help , i feel nothing, but so does my head
its gonna be like that all summer isnt it ? im gonna need a lot of pills then
but hey "its only kids ... they're just playing" ...
i wouldnt give a shit if they didnt personally threaten me, kept filming me and set me up with statements so i had to go to the fucking police office
now i'm stuck with a vendetta
no, precious i did not , didnt vandalize as a kid, ... was kid yes, got more than one beating by "old people" when we went too far, never called police though, i dont think that would have helped ... never got into any of that shit until i was past 30, didnt do prescription sedatives until WAY after i got kicked to the street, and then until WAY after i started using heavy dope which was WAY after i started selling it, i remember b/c the first time i did it i traded a box of diazepam for half a gram ...
14 years ago now, as old as those shit are, but no i didnt, as usual i don't compare to anything or anyone
of you
or them ... if i didnt know any better id think they were escorting the supplier past my house , which is the way to his, clearly ... that big mouth is scared hm ?
the irony ... you see, these are my thought the first half hour i wake up. That shit is counterproductive but i have a mental and emotional flatline from the pills so i guess no murder today
out of luck uncle po ...
damn that vanilla-rose tea STINKS
23:45 ... quiet ... i cant hear humans ... finally, to think id be living somewhere on the outback of mongolia but i'm stuck here instead in hell. It wasnt the vanilla-rose , it was jasmine-green stink, the vanilla rose smells like liquid pancakes ...
that's not tea either, i seem to do well without to coffee, maybe i should stick to tea, and a double dose of pills until september , i should prepare the food while its dark and quiet but with mental flatline comes immobility ofcourse
20180628
looks like i did it after all ... you can stick your "job" up your ass even if you threaten me with jail, what you WANNA do is earn YOUR pay and fix the little shit problem and FUCK OFF and LEAVE ME THE FUCK ALONE you had dozens of chances to incorporate me back and IM FUCKING TIRED OF IT
the night becomes me so much better , i got food for two days, prepared in like an hour while preparing the posts and grinding some dragons in dark souls
the recipes are called make do with what you have-lasagne and "tatoes with vegetables" ... don't make me say it ... you gonna make me say it ... #FUCKFLANDERS, steek je erpe-mere in je achtergat if you woulda let me do id be living on the other side of the planet, threaten someone who gives a shit.
i should be daylight-proof for two days now ... alas this place will probably sill wake me up so i sit on my ass from 10 to 6 doing nothing because there's too much light and the sound of shit outside
and the winner is :
@steembasicincome #steembasicincome #borderlessnation !!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!
NOTHING is sacred, YOU have the right to question
everything
people who are receiving daily votes thanks to yours truly @rudyardcatling because i got a share in @steembasicincome for me ... isnt that the nicest thing ? a pledge i made long ago when things looked a bit brighter right in front of me, 10% of every year, slightly distorted and applied (for now, with no obligations ofcourse)
i have to thank @dannyshine for enrolling me (without telling me, i wouldnt have noticed if i didnt check my logs) so i dont tell the others and they wont know unless they read here or check their logs , just remember long after you use it before they implement it
@dannyshine, @fishmon , @futuremind , @free999enigma (x2), @mikebluehair42 , @lastditch , @darsico(x2
find #steembasicincome at @steembasicincome, they will reply on the feed but better on the discord
not sure if all those are still correct, i'll check it some time, but im sure you can find their feed if need be ... the rules ? blablabla, first of all i give away what i give away so i dont think there's anything to debate but first goes random from the top voters at the moment of 10X, if all top voters have had one within one month then it goes random from then 1000+ followers, MIND YOU : ONLY NON STALE ACCOUNTS, NON BOT ACCOUNTS AND NO ACCOUNTS THAT ONLY RE-STEEM or it would be a waste, so yea, there's two people who have two, they happen to be top-voters on my account, why would that be unfair ? and even if it is ... you're free to refuse a share if you get one, i dont get paid to diplomat
i have a small idea on how to give to people who already received a share if they come up but i have to test that first
@cryptoasis
(image from https://www.innovationtoronto.com/ )
i will ofcourse check the account before i send, if it's a 'stale' account then putting sbi bots on it to vote is 100% pointless
i think we can all agree on that ?
there we are, see you at 290 (im not sure i'm keepin track here i send the sbi way before because i keep the messages for content, open book, hyperthread, THINK MORE, work less unless its for yourself, symbiosis is the key to nature)
@rudyardcatling catta liiina , puts his cat in the senate then asks the powers that be : "if you see any whale with 2million sp give 10 percent out in daily vote shares instead of telling you to entertaim them ... you know, do a little monkey dance and tell a funny and maybe then you get a crumb ... give them a round of applause) ... i think that's it for now
i know its caligula, dude, but how does that rhyme with cat?
thanks for your patience
and kind consideration
owh .. by the way ->
i do not ask for anything in return nor will i refuse anything that doesn't come with strings attached, if anyone for any reason doesn't want their share , they can always give it back, it's all in the faq, since this is the internet i assume you know what that is, and where to find it
it's easy to be magnanimous and enlightened when you're pockets are ALREADY FAT
last but not least :
gud ... gud to see there's SOME common sense and resistance to the lobby still
https://torrentfreak.com/ettv-launches-official-proxy-to-fight-isp-blocking-180624/
awesome !!! i got the mail earlier this week too ... i had the alleycat url already but the login was a different one, microshit locked that account for no reasons given "blabla eula and we dont have to give you a reason so even if i had any credentials AFTER ALL THESE YEARS OF HEARING NOTHING ? my one point x bitcoin worth around $500 at the moment ? i couldnt even prove it was mine
THANKS FOR THAT? nice to see "the law" at work
stuff like this is just what's needed to chip off little by little from the powers that be i will be definitely checking this out
https://torrentfreak.com/peertube-a-censorship-resistent-youtube-alternative-180623/
it's about "winning" , its testosterone contest, there is zero logical or financial reason why this would be pursued at the cost of millions and millions just to get the occasional guy in jail (where society can pay for it) or get downloadmom a fine that costs her half her income for the rest of her life, or have uploadsson extradited to the states on accusations of copyrism.
Its simply about winning, all the research, all the numbers, all the facts, all the data point in the opposite direction saying its not even worth one single lawsuit because the impact is minimal but what do we get ?
and ive been yapping about that a while ago
warner brothers sues harry potter festivals for "unauthorized commercial activity" its like i mean
next thing you know metallice would be sueing their own fans as if they didnt have enough ...
so they make these boxes illegal and they move to the black market
end of story there
in the meantime this is "free advertising" lol
https://torrentfreak.com/live-tv-piracy-watermarking-defeated-by-devices-sold-on-ebay-180624/
competition in Duopolis ... that can only be good ... although it will likely end up with either of the cpu whales buying them .. thats how its done, right ?
or microsoft maybe ? always on the lookout to simply buy someones work, talk about lazy-co, right ? all those billions and no initiative ?
dont care how much money you got, but i might care to see what you do with what you got
i doubt it , ive been preaching about this for a while on torrenfreak now "next they will start hunting cosplayers and fanfiction" et voila :)
there we are
“The reason most new crypto investors hype the “utility hypothesis” is because you can’t get a 75% discount to the Bitcoin pre-sale.” — Arjun Balaji
yagh, the ICO-disease ... sell air while waiting for the first line of code, worked well for EOS ...
i also, do i read correctly that ETHereum actually has the option to cheat after sharding is implemented and they will rely on "punishment" to avoid that ??
LO O O O O O O O OOOOL, i mean its like if even the death penalyt would work thered be no more murder since the dark ages, right? Good luck with that, butterboy V.
and then , the A.I. blockchain to rule them all for once and all end 2018 ? after which the quantum A.I. blockchain to rule them all i suppose ?
interesting times you say ? data overload i say ...
https://hackernoon.com/state-of-cryptocurrencies-summer-2018-932016549375
i’m 99% sure (at quantum level thats close to 100) that it will DEFINITELY benefit
the banking sector, what it will do to the other 10.000 cryptocurrencies and chains however ? competing ofcourse thats what those psychopaths do
https://medium.com/@nausokolarti1/wall-street-on-blockchain-is-a-revolution-coming-e20ab2380e04
turing gpu ... can it mine steem ? o wait no ... centralized authority, DAMN
100% microsoft-free ?
https://sourceforge.net/blog/brief-history-sourceforge-look-to-future/
this weeks $500 huh ? no wonder you people have no empathy with the plankton dude …
but i concurr, Tron immediately gave an impression of a sloppy void, the app sites were empty and at best linked to some facebook pages, VERY disappointing after the hype
like EOS HAHAH
https://hackernoon.com/a-crypto-traders-diary-week-13-tron-1206ed11d92f
spoken like a plush, rich fuck on Ted ... applaud ... it's easy to be magnanimous when your pockets are already fat
https://medium.com/futuresin/the-future-of-decentralization-acfcf0ae909c
me : https://steemit.com/introduction/@rudyardcatling/signature-post-20180501
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well i feel for ya but it will go back up when exactly can't say but it will soon hopefully, as soon as the guy turns the beam back on did anybody send him the signal yet?
ohh okay i see it now but how long does it take? :)
well it didn't take that long anyways :)