To My Now Lost Friend

I used to say that if Im two steps away from you, I'd willingly run that distance to catch up with you. And if you go farther, I would run an extra mile just to be with you. I soaked myself with all of your sweet promises and dived deeper just to make them worthwhile memories. Just the sight of you gives me utmost glee. Your comforting words are my confidence booster. I treasured you enough that I forgot to treasure myself. But time is just so cruel. You walked too fast and I trodded that happily not knowing that I can no longer keep up with you just how I wanted to. I lost my pace. Maybe I was just to concerned of how fast I should have ran not knowing that you went too far. The second I realized everything, I saw you turn your back from me and settled being with the new people you met along the way.

You were too precious back then. I'll admit that. You were too valuable that I became so afraid of losing you. But seeing how you can easily turn your back from the people you knew first in exchange for the people you are now with, I can say that you are gradually losing your worth. The magnitude of your presence seems to lessen that I may not feel it anymore. Your words of comfort are not on my search list anymore during my worst times. Your hand isnt there anymore in the photograph of hands that I want to hold whenever I'm tired and weary. And I can say that you are that treasure that I lost, yet I'm at doubt if I should go and find you. You are that jewel that I no longer want to delve into.

But inspite of your sudden disappearance, I want to say thank you. Thank you because when you started walking away, I finally saw the people that are most willing to traipse along with me in my journey. I thank you because right now, I can heartfully give those people their righteous values that I once invested too much on you. Finally, thank you because you taught me that even the stickiest note can even be as temporary.

I know I should let you be with the ones who can make you happy. I am aware that you are now with the people whom you can trod along comfortably. And I am happy for you. Maybe I should let you know that I am doing well too. But despite everything, I am still waiting for you. I am still willing to take you by the hand and forge across the other end of the earth. I will always be here for you even if I became that white smoke in the rain for you, my friend.

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