Aw... yeah, that can't feel very good. I know how you feel, hon. I have this little motto that I picked up along the way that helps me through this kind of thing. Maybe it'll help you, too. It goes something like this: when you've got a not-so great situation going on and you start losing hope that it'll get better, try to imagine it as a bad T.V. show when you've lost the remote. Just hang out a while and it'll change on its own eventually. For those of us who are devoted to the Steem blockchain, you're a shining star even if you're feeling a little tarnished. Things will get better one way or another.