I was just a few weeks behind you and had stars in my eyes, too.
(Ned could've walked amongst us as a god, if he hadn't been intent on screwing us over for his own benefit.)

Then my too gruff exterior reminded me that if I have to survive at the whim of the popular kids I was gonna be hoeing a tough row.

One whale that will remain nameless, if not blameless in destroying another steem fork, voted me more than 20 times with a vote that he thought was funny because he knew it would round down.

I was joke to him, some amusement for his day.
And you know what? His money still gets more respect than I do.

But, this game of life is won by pluck, those folks that have it handed to them, or take it by crook, and begin to lord it over others will get their comeuppance as long as I simply continue being a good person.
That is simple physics.

I may not be the most mannerific, but I call it as I see it, too.

So, I feel the deadness, but it won't stop me from persisting.
I hope you stick it out, too.