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Fellow Steemians...

Some of you might have already been able to understand my situation and others might not be aware of it. - In this article, I'll share some details.

A quick note about myself.

• I am a random guy from Sweden who has his struggles like most of us does. I suffer from panic anxiety, depression and I work as a full time freelancer, and I've been doing that for the past 7 years.

However, the summers are always the worst for me and this year it's worst then ever.

I work hard and I strive to encourage, inspire and motivate my readers on Steemit. I've been a member for 14 months and I've shared tons of various content. I've also published a bunch of minnow-related articles as I want to help them as much as possible. - I believe we deserve it. - I believe that Steemit and all the Steemians deserves to have a great experience here and I work hard to support others and reduce their mistakes.

That being said, I never beg for money. I never contact other Steemians and beg them for upvotes or follows. Never. - The 1200+ followers I've gained so far, have followed me due to their own will. - And I never ask for donations, no matter how desperate I am. - I don't blame others for doing so, and I don't judge them, but I can't allow myself to do such things myself so I always try to provide something, so it's worth it. - I want people to get value for their money, no matter if we're talking about services I'm selling or upvotes.

Also, in desperate times like this, I decided to offer a Service for a very limited time. A Resteem Service. - 1 SBD/STEEM for 1 Resteem. Simple as that. - And that's something I can do, for the money I'm asking. - And it's for a good cause as it will help both me and venuspcs who's having a hard time too. - (I've explained this in previous posts of mine so I won't go into any details, but I stated that I'd share 50% of the money I generated from the Resteem service with venuspcs).

• That being said...

I made it possible for people to use my service. I gave people an opportunity to support two Steemians. I offered people something for the money. - That to me, is something of value.

In 1 week from now, I'll go on a "Steem-cruise" I've been talking about. A "mini-vacation" for 24 hours with a bunch of friends. - During this cruise, I'll promote Steemit as much as possible by talking with people on board, but also by giving away free Steemit Merchandise. (T-shirts).

My first idea was to giveaway both T-shirts, flyers and business cards, but I just can't afford doing that, so I had to go with one of the options and it landed on T-shirts. - During these past days, my phone also crashed. - And due to these expenses alone, I had to figure out a way to generate some income. - That's why the Resteem Service was born.

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Neoxian is awesome!

During this hard time I've got other expenses too. My phone bill and things like that. - Earlier today, I tried everything I could. I did everything I could think of and for some reason, I remembered @neoxian's Loan Service.

Also, if you've read previous posts of mine, I bet you understand that I don't like to ask for help and that I have a really hard time open up to people and tell them how bad my situation really is.

Today, I decided to do that when I contacted @neoxian. - And to tell you the truth, he actually told me this:

The fact that you are being so vague makes me wary of this.

And I don't blame him at all. First of all, I'm a complete stranger asking for a loan. And on top of that, I never told him how much I was looking for. - I tried to get myself an offer from him, without giving him details.

I know it sounds stupid or weird, but to me, it wasn't. - I never ask people for donations or handouts. I usually don't ask people for help, because that's not me. I consider myself to be a support pillar and that means that I am the one who should help others and not the other way around. - That was the reason this was extremely hard for me.

I was afraid of being rejected and frankly put, why should he help me? - Long story short. We made a deal and I've borrowed 350 SBD from him. - You can find his post about it here:

https://steemit.com/bank/@neoxian/the-imperial-bank-of-neoxian-loan-contract-with-hitmeasap

With this article, I show you that I've borrowed this amount, but I also want to give neoxian a special thanks for helping me in these desperate times. I'm truly grateful for this. - And for other people in need, never forget to be concrete. I was very vague and that could've cost me this help. - Because I was afraid, and there's nothing to be afraid of.

I'm not ashamed that I had to ask for help.. Even though I still don't like it as I'd rather sort things out myself. - But sometimes, you need help... And it's okay to ask!

Thank you once again neoxian!

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