Cumming to Hate You

Give a blubbering mess a cat 

Or a sandwich, that's what I would do

 But feeling your hard on grow

 Confuses disturbs excites

 And certainly quiets my sobs 

Didn't know how hushed the house had become

 Until I had to try not to moan 

Tear soaked pillow scented with lavender that Molly had bought at some fufu shop

 How many dumb cheerleader jokes did I know? 

Too many where she dies in the end 

These porcelain angels are creeping me out

 But I orgasm none the less

 Stuck on her swollen bruised hands coated healthy glow concealer

 Might as well have been lead paint 

He shrinks inside me and releases my breasts 

I wonder if a dead sibling will make him

 Stop fucking other people 

Or plaster up the foundation

 Eroding from the freeze thaw cycle that began

 With a fifth of vodka and an admittance of guilt 

I would really like a sandwich right about now 

Or a cat to claw out his eyes

 For looking upon me with pity

 Instead of recognizing the ferocity that I would be using

 To tear you to pieces

 You selfish cowardice unfaithful asshole

 That scarred my ability to trust, to open, to love someone

 That perverted my kindness and fed my violence

 My little sister died and I came

 To hate you

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