RE: Anger and loss | Life and death
I am so sorry you are going through this. I have lost quite a few people to suicide over the years, and anger is universally the first response. Obviously, when someone gets to the point that suicide seems like the only way out, they are not thinking about others and how their actions will affect them, but suicide, unlike other deaths, kills a piece of the survivors as well. It's a kind of violence done to the living, and you have every right to be angry. It makes it hard to truly grieve their loss, but as your anger fades (it might not ever disappear entirely) hopefully you will be able to love them and let them go. I'm glad you shared this story. I agree that writing about it is a way of working through the trauma and organizing your feelings, which must be all over the place. What a tragic loss. Again, I am so sorry.
Thanks for your kind words of wisdom. I'm not the only one to have experienced this and I won't be the last. It seems to be a preferred way out for many people and is often a very tragic and final way to deal with emotions and feelings of despondency, pain and emotional suffering.
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What always gets me is that it's a permanent solution to what is almost always a temporary problem. I've gone pretty dark a few times in my life but never that dark, and I can't imagine what it would take to get to that point.