I think you're thinking the right way. There is not just a direct path in life that everyone should take. It's also impossible to be a 'homeowner' sadly. In my opinion, you need to find something you really care about (not something society tells you to care about) and put all of your effort into that. It could be a job, a talent, a hobby, or an outcome that you're looking for and if you really focus on it, it will more than likely erase some of what you're feeling. I think later you can revisit these thoughts in a different way. Just my opinion here, don't trust every stranger you meet on the internet, lol. The quest for more is not always satisfying because eventually you want more.