Wow... I see emotions in ur write up...
Trust me, you are not alone in your article... We are the same!
But then, I try some ways of cheering myself :::

1. How people feel about you; you are the driver of your own mind! No one is perfect, as everyone is a creature...
   If you are into contradicting arguments, then try as much as possible to do it with an open mind, only then you will find out that you have not argued but discussed... Thereby, learning from your contradicting partner.

2. Too afraid to confront : sweetheart, am sure your friends would respect you for you are... Fingers ain't equal, feel free to express your mind... You can't say, you might actually find a coherent / like mind amongst your friends.

3. low-risk tolerance in relationships:: my dear, you have high tolerance in financial investment because you know about finances and investments... When you know the your partner well, there's no doubt, you will feel loved and "successful" in your relationship. But for you to know your partner, your partner must know you (your nature) too... Let people accept you for who you are...

I hope my formula proves useful 😎😍