I am happy to hear you say that you have chosen life and that life is good to live.this is in line with what Bible said " I set before you blessing and curse ,life and death but chose ye life so that you may live" So far you have chosen life my dear this is the best you can do for yourself because this is the mind of God for you so that you will live and testify the goodness of God.may the goodness of God fall on you more and more in Jesus name .