I wanted to grow but not now again

I took away my mouth,
From the soft bosom.
I placed my feet on ground,
Staggering to gain balance.
I fall I rise,
I kept my head straight.

Nothing to worry about,
I have my meals, play and sleep.
I felt secured,
Fret over nothing.

At dawn of my life,
When the sun smiles.
I watch the flower,
Dances to the tune of wind.

I was null and void,
Nature breath life into me.
I am nowhere going nowhere,
I see the sky I see the tree,
So i got drowned,
In the cacophony of birds.

The sun shining brighter,
I want to grow faster.
I want to be a man;
Live the life of husband and wife,
I want to love,
I want to be loved.
I have my goals,
I want to grow.

I have classes to attend,
Worries over unfinished assignment.
I lose sleep over passing exams,
My parents must be proud of me.

Now It is noon;
I want to be enclosed,
In a woman bosom.
I want to have a heir,
I want my own castle.

I want to control cashes,
Wikipedia should have my biography.
I should have an empire.
Where I rule the folks.

helter skelter I run,
Unending bills to cleared.
I have to sacrifice my time,
For the kids and their mom.

I watch my sunset,
In ups and downs.
I still have records to set,
Some dreams unaccomplished.

It is twilight;
My shoulders are dropping,
Shrunken are my skins,
My hair now is grey.

It is dusk
Now I recall;
Once I was a kid,
I was young and strong,
I have the money,
And time was limitless.

But I want it,
To grow was all i wanted.
But not now again,
I have been growing to die.
If only that I could change the hand of time,
I would be a kid once again.