It is my last dialysis treatment today for this year 2025 and I hope for more financially fruitful years to come as well

Source - Cryptopie

Source - Cryptopie

It was a heck of an experience being a dialysis patient and I was not lucky enough to support myself during the first or even half of the time being a dialysis patient because I did suffered a lot for not getting the bets treatment that I need. I remember being rushed to the hospital because I of seizure caused both by high blood pressure and high creatinine levels, a perfect combination for my brain and body to sort of give way, hence I went out of myself and had the seizure, which ever came first.

The reason for that was because at first my dialysis sessions went too far in between, once a week dialysis session didn't cut it for me since both of my kidneys are not working anymore but due to financial constraints my mother as I recall it asked for a weekly dialysis for me which my Nephrologist back then agreed since I can still pee a little bit.

However, both my creatinine a nd blood pressure went up so high that it caused my brain to seized-up while we are actually inside our car going for my dialysis at that time. Thank God a million times that we had a car which my father also uses as a taxi service because otherwise I might not to the hospital in time to correct the trouble. However at that same day I was not dialyzed because I was having seizures and then I am also out of my normal mind because of high creatinine levels in my blood. My rabid-like rage while having to lose my mind probably made me to seize more which is why the doctors at the hospital gave me shots of I.V. diazepam which also made my brain to go blank for almost a week.

And so, my subsequent dialysis sessions within that week, three as I learned, had made my blood pressure and creatinine go down substantially to cut the seizing. But I am still in the influence of I.V. diazepam which the doctors gad used to stop me from being like I am possessed by some spirit being but it made my bran go blank. I would also not recommend using sleeping pills of any sort to help you sleep because it doesn't really give you a restful sleep that your brain needs.

Anyway, after going home still being like a vegetable, I had a dream prior to my waking-up. However I experienced visual hallucinations and then every sound feels like it was the first time I heard such a thing like peoples voices, the sound of vehicles passing by, and then seeing things like a kaleidoscope which I can control its whiling motion on the wall by my thumb. I also saw that my legs look like it was a frozen skinned chicken legs and later after all had gone close to normal, I learned that I was just hallucinating. The difference was I can still recognize my family members.

Also, upon waking up I felt so weak and I remember that I couldn't move either my right arm or my left arm. I felt worried thinking that I suffered a stroke because I can't figure out how to turn the page of a newspaper but I was able to learn it a few hours later. I also saw my face without extra water, how I look made me to see my image as it should be without edema for he first time, then years later I will sloe my original facial image as my bones had been affected by years of substance imbalance in my body for years.

My story aforementioned above is just one instance within my 24 dialysis years of how it had been a difficult journey for me and it was caused by not being able to sustain my needs within more than half of the time being a dialysis patient. Had I received a proper care, then my physical outcome might have been prevented. So now I am not sure if I can fully, with the help of the merciful God, to completely rehabilitate my body, but I am leaning towards the negative side because my body's weakness is not improving maybe due to another problem that I am not aware which is causing it.

I don't know how long my damage control management will hold-up but as I said it before, something will give-up in my body and it will all collapse like a house of cards blown by a breeze. I might say, this is not the way a person should live because of the challenges are as high as Mount Everest to overcome, it is just impossible and even time now is not on my side. But it is still worth it to live knowing that I have a selfless and loving family that cares but my situation will turn bad by just a single event which is why I am cherishing every single second of every minute of every hour everyday of every week every month of very year because they are just given as a borrowed time and they are precious.

To sum it all up now I can say that I had lived a very bad life because it is a torturous life and I am not enjoying. But I have accomplished great things already that not all people can do, it is a mix of wins and losses but I thank God a million times for the reason that God's hands are always outstretched for me to grab and hold to pull my head up from many troubles in the past and I still am hopeful that in the next succeeding minutes, hours, days, weeks, months, and years if I will be given more time, that God will always be on my side because I can't live without God's mercy.

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