Seek and you shall find but with God's blessing and mercy, you still need to grind
When I was just starting my dialysis treatment, I feel so helpless, a big drag to my family and so they got affected because of my misfortune especially for me because I was the one who is also feeling the physical torment of being a dialysis patient plus I am jobless. If I was an other person in a different family with the same economic capability (being poor), I might end-up just like one or two of my neighbors who didn't chose to get their life extended because they are poorer than us plus the fact that it so easy for them to chose that route (letting their lovedones go and die slowly) rather than being in like my situation with at least one of my brothers who did supported me fully right from the start, sacrificing his time and effort to keep me afloat together with my Mother (parents) who did their own share of support as well as my siblings which all of them can do much because of the relentless financial burden that this kind of medical condition needs in order for me to see the series of tomorrows which at many instances I pray to come faster because I wanted to get dialyzed already as soon as I left the dialysis center due to insufficient treatment days and quality because we really can't afford it.
I only was able to survive for so many years because of the loans that my brother took, first from a loan-shark neighbor, and then from his friends from the company that he works with from that time as a simple employee where his friends didn't take an interest from that loan, God bless them. Later my church where I belong had set-up a dialysis clinic which caters to at first, members only and then they started to take-in other people not members of the church. The service was partially paid by the patients so the service was quite good and I was offered to get dialyzed three times a week which I declined because it will cost me more. Later, the church taught the members not to take a fee for services rendered whatever it was so it my get counted as "holiness" to the ones that gives such support and help, or service to anyone by the members of the church. So consequently we were not asked for payment anymore and so it was a sigh of relief for me. All the while my brother is still giving me allowance for my needs because I can't possibly work as my body began to weaken already and I am not feeling well all the time too because of the lack of quality dialysis treatment right from the start.
The church discontinued the dialysis service because it cannot get a license maybe from the department of health or the mayor as they say but personally I have reservations why it got discontinued. Well anyway, the church has a free clinic now which offers diagnostic services, tooth extraction, and new dialysis service where I wasn't given the chance to get treated because I was already a very long patient to the current dialysis clinic which I was going for the past 14 years or so. When I got there for the firsts time, it was my church who pays my doctor's fees and the extra charges rendered when I get treated. Then after I was able to use my government universal health insurance, I got freed from having to rely on other people to basically help me financially because during that time from 2012 or so I was already earning, not from cryptos but from a social media where the revenues comes from advertisement. In short I was able to amass money which I have never dreamed of making before so I thought that I was financially free from those months and what is good is that I was enjoying doing it and making use of my insomnia to cease every single moment so that I can be able to make money every single day. I only stop when I feel that I am already crashing which gives me the opportunity to at least get some sleep from the whole night starting from late afternoon until morning in the next day.
To my mother I was only typing non-stop not knowing that the money I earned from that former website now closed will pave a way for me to discover the world of cryptocurrencies. Along my way I lost some money and I made some and I am not thinking anymore about the things which I have lost because there will never be a benefit for me from a thing which is already gone, I just have to learn from it because after all, the things that I lost just kind of landed on my hands and then flew away, I have to move on and value now what I can consider a rolling gift from God, the ability to earn without bothering anyone anymore including bothering myself on queuing to government politician's office to ask for financial help and make me feel like the downiest of the down in dignity, a sort of a stash of trash on the side-walk. Right at this moment I am earning regularly, not in an easy way because I still have to make an effort about it an this will just stop if I can no longer physically hold my hands to write on the blockchain. It is all good because I am enjoying it anyway and of course makes me happier when my rewards are there already ready for what I can do for it. But besides financial gains which I am enjoying, the other blessings from God that I also enjoy are the physical improvements which really improved my quality of life and because of all these I thank God a million times.
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